The First Night Of Fall And Falling Rain by Delmore Schwartz
The common rain had come again Slanting and colorless, pale and anonymous, Fainting falling in the first evening Of the first perception of the actual fall, The long and late light had slowly gathered up A sooty wood of clouded sky, dim and distant more and more Until, at dusk, the very sense of selfhood waned, A weakening nothing halted, diminished or denied or set aside, Neither tea, nor, after an hour, whiskey, Ice and then a pleasant glow, a burning, And the first leaping wood fire Since a cold night in May, too long ago to be more than Merely a cold and vivid memory. Staring, empty, and without thought Beyond the rising mists of the emotion of causeless sadness, How suddenly all consciousness leaped in spontaneous gladness, Knowing without thinking how the falling rain (outside, all over) In slow sustained consistent vibration all over outside Tapping window, streaking roof, running down runnel and drain Waking a sense, once more, of all that lived outside of us, Beyond emotion, for beyond the swollen distorted shadows and lights Of the toy town and the vanity fair of waking consciousness!