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Age by Robert Creeley
Most explicit-- the sense of trap
as a narrowing cone one's got
stuck into and any movement
forward simply wedges once more--
but where or quite when,
even with whom, since now there is no one
quite with you--Quite? Quiet? English expression: Quait?
Language of singular impedance? A dance? An
involuntary gesture to others not there? What's
wrong here? How reach out to the
other side all others live on as
now you see the two doctors, behind
you, in mind's eye, probe into your anus,
or ass, or bottom, behind you, the roto-
rooter-like device sees all up, concludes
"like a worn-out inner tube," "old," prose prolapsed, person's
problems won't do, must cut into, cut out . . .
The world is a round but diminishing ball, a spherical
ice cube, a dusty joke, a fading,
faint echo of its former self but remembers,
sometimes, its past, sees friends, places, reflections,
talks to itself in a fond, judgemental murmur,
alone at last. I stood so close
to you I could have reached out and
touched you just as you turned
over and began to snore not unattractively,
no, never less than attractively, my love,
my love--but in this curiously glowing dark, this
finite emptiness, you, you, you are crucial, hear the
whimpering back of the talk, the approaching
fears when I may cease to be me, all
lost or rather lumped here in a retrograded,
dislocating, imploding self, a uselessness
talks, even if finally to no one, talks and talks.
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